Sunday, October 10, 2010

what are you seeing?

The lectionary text today shares the story some people being healed and one person being made whole. (Luke 17:11-19) I like a couple of things about the text.

1. I like that the lepers demand Jesus' attention with a declarative sentence and exclamation point! 'have mercy! In our English translation we miss the implied action in mercy- have empathy for us, great. but more than just having empathy- do something! I like the lepers' insistence that Jesus gets involved.

'you know our being separated from our family and friends isn't right! do something!

 2. I like that Jesus responds with looking at them 'he sees them' vs.'hearing them.' I like that Jesus' response to them is to be present to them, look at them, face them.

3. I like that the Samaritan noticed something was happening to him. He actually looked at himself, reflected on the change and integrated that awareness into action.

4. I like that that the phrase 'he was saved' (inaccurate translation of Greek) is actually present tense in English. wholeness is our present state of being. it is our current way of experiencing life. it is heaven in the here and now.


5. I particularly like that the writer of Luke must have flunked geography- Jesus left Galilee and entered Samaria, so being on the way to Jerusalem, he cannot now be in Galilee (courtesy of Chris Haslam).





When you look at your life, your work, your family and your friends,

                  who or what do you see?

And how does that awareness make a difference in your life? For the Samaritan it was the difference between being healed and being whole.

Sunday, September 19, 2010

First Aid Kits

First Aid Kits

How do you respond to illness, to injury, disease?

Emotional, physical, or spiritual? Either yours or someone else’s?

How do you respond to sin? Either you’re own or someone else’s?

I have a collection of first aid kits, not an extensive collection, nothing distinguishing, nothing to take to ‘antique roadshow’; more like ‘one for every room in the house’ kind of collection. Before going on a trip one of my purchases will undoubtedly be a new first aid kit, sized for both the length and type of journey. I have palm sized ones for my backpack, medium sized one for the car and I even have a waterproof one for our kayaks!

Some of us can’t read today’s text without immediately humming the tune and thinking of the words of the spiritual ‘there is a balm in Gilead’. And unfortunately that gives us an assumed familiarity with this text, that I’m not sure is helpful. While the term ‘balm’ does refer to an ointment, a salve- perhaps there is another message from Jeremiah for us today.

What might Jeremiah say to us today? We’ll come back to the first aids kits in a moment.
Two important concepts to keep in mind:

For the earliest audience the chief value in the prophetic message was not predictive, but historical.                 How did we get here from there?

For Jeremiah, how the Hebrew people got from ‘here’ to ‘there’ was directly tied to their ability to repent and with that repentance God’s presence in history.

Commentators on the text of Jeremiah point to poetic devices embedded in the narrative. This section is one such occurrence and I will read it in the way commentators suggest it was read to early listeners.

Jeremiah: My joy is gone; my sorrow is beyond healing, my heart is sick! Listen! The cry of the daughter of my people throughout the land! (vv. 18-19a)

     People: Is the Lord not in Zion? Is her king not in her? (v. 19b)

           God: Why have they provoked me with their idols and foreign gods? (v. 19c)

     People: Harvest is past, summer is ended and we have not been delivered. (v. 20)

Jeremiah: For the brokenness of the daughter of my people I am broken. I mourn and dismay has seized me! Is there no balm in Gilead? Is there no physician there? Then why has there been no healing of the daughter of my people? O, that my head were waters and my eyes a fountain of tears that I might weep day and night for the slain of the daughter of my people! (vv. 22-9:1)

(see http://www.cresourcei.org/lectionary/YearC/Cproper20ot.html)

I am reminded of sitting in my counseling office with a couple seeking marital therapy. The dialogue we just heard if played out in a therapist’s office is an example of cross talk. Two, three people talking, expressing deep concerns and feelings, but they are not talking to each other; they are talking at each other.
                 Let’s look at their conversation:

Jeremiah starts: My joy is gone, my sorrow is beyond healing, my heart is sick! Listen! The cry of the daughter of my people throughout the land! This is someone who seems to have a grasp on the events in front of him. Someone who is deeply in touch with his pain and the sorrow of others. Before we pick up with the people’s response- how do you respond to someone expressing this depth of sorrow?

In our own discomfort with someone else’s pain are we tempted to reach for a balm? A band-aid? Do we give advice? When you are expressing such intense emotions how do you want to be listened to?

Are we as listeners able to do what Jeremiah asks us to do? ‘Listen!”

This is where the cross talk begins-

The people respond: Is the Lord not in Zion? Is her king not in her?

"What are you talking about Jeremiah? Does not God dwell in Zion? Then, what is there to worry about?" It is a way to discount Jeremiah’s message. It is actually more telling than that- it shows their assumptions about and their expectations of God.

God’s place is in Zion- Jerusalem’s security rests solely in the Lord’s protection of the city, the temple and the people. The people were confident based on the idea that God’s presence in the Temple would guarantee their survival.

God is responsible and accountable to God’s people.

           The people's covenant with God only flows in one direction- from God to God’s people.

What do your phrases about God, your statements of belief, say about your understanding of God?

How do you fill in the sentence, ‘If God…, then…” What does your sentence say about God, what does it say about you?

And God responds with a covenantal reference:

God: Why have they provoked me with their idols and foreign gods? (v. 19c)

Which is of course recalling the first commandment:

Exodus 20: 2.

I am the LORD (YHWH) your God, who brought you out of the land of Egypt, out of the house of slavery; you shall have no other gods before me.”

Does this phrase affirm or challenge your belief sentence about God?

Have you had your assumptions, your beliefs about how church should be/ Christians should act and God behave ever challenged? Have sacred texts, wise council or God’s spirit challenged you? How did you respond?

How did the people respond? More cross talk- in fact, they completely ignore God’s statement- they don’t deny it, they don’t dispute it, and they simply don’t respond but pick up where they left off. They do however respond with a heightened emotional statement, a blaming, and an accusation of God.

People: Harvest is past, summer is ended and we have not been delivered. (v. 20)

This is more than likely a challenge thrown back at God.

The metaphor of harvest (8:20) was a common prophetic way of talking about accountability to God. Isaiah had made the most direct use of this metaphor when he had compared Israel to a choice vine planted by God, who had then expected a harvest of fine grapes. Jeremiah had picked up this same metaphor earlier in the chapter (v. 13). He even took it one step further, and noted that not only had they failed to produce fruit at harvest time, they had even lost what they were given. (http://www.cresourcei.org/lectionary/YearC/Cproper20ot.html)

Yet, in an interesting twist to the harvest metaphor, the people demanded that God get with the program and do what God was supposed to do. God had not acted on schedule according to when and how and where they thought God should act, and they are becoming a little impatient with God’s delay of deliverance. It is similar to the metaphor of tapping their watches to remind God that God is running behind schedule. http://www.cresourcei.org/lectionary/YearC/Cproper20ot.html)

At this point Jeremiah steps back in:

Jeremiah: For the brokenness of the daughter of my people I am broken. I mourn and dismay has seized me! Is there no balm in Gilead? Is there no physician there? Then why has there been no healing of the daughter of my people? O, that my head were waters and my eyes a fountain of tears that I might weep day and night for the slain of the daughter of my people! (vv. 22-9:1)

Interesting to note he picks right up where he left off. He neither responds to the people’s accusation and challenge towards God, he doesn’t respond to God’s call to covenantal relationship,

      he remains deeply rooted in his sorrow.

Commentators point out that it is difficult to distinguish the narrator’s voice, that of Jeremiah from God’s voice.

     Jeremiah’s pain and God’s pain are one and the same.

Honesty with one’s self and others about one’s brokenness, one’s pain can offer the first steps towards healing and reconciliation. Honesty that speaks of my accountability, my actions, my involvement- not in blame language or directing responsibility outside of myself.

Where do you find yourself in today’s conversation in this text? Do you sit with Jeremiah, intensively sorrowful about how we as a people of faith, a nation, and a world have broken our covenantal relationship with God?

Do you hear echoes of the people’s abdication of responsibility in your own conversations? ‘He/she should have known this was going to happen, it’s not my fault, and it’s not my responsibility? The government needs to…, our mayor, our teachers, our preacher…”

Are you calling yourself and others back into covenantal relationship with God? Perhaps starting with the words, ‘I’m sorry.”

Do we need balm, band aids, and first aid kits in our relationships with each other? Absolutely! We need to have words, phrases and gestures that speak of forgiveness, accountability and reconciliation sprinkled liberally throughout our conversations.

How about in our relationship with God? Jeremiah’s passage today gives us a lens through which to discern our own relationship with God- Why have they provoked me with their idols and foreign gods?

This is the word I hear Jeremiah speaking to us today-

~Are you loving God with all your heart, your soul, your mind?

~Are your thoughts and actions provoking God?

We’ve eavesdropped on a curious conversation this morning haven’t we?

May God guide our discernment and our response to God’s word today.

 

Tuesday, August 31, 2010

5.00 am wake-up

All week long campers talked excitedly about ‘Friday morning’. Friday morning would be the day we woke at 5.00 am, grabbed our flashlights and headed up the footpath leading to the top of the mountain to welcome the morning sun.
The year was 1968 and I was 14- getting up at 5.00 am was still a novel and exciting concept!
In the days leading up to the morning hike we discussed who would bring the snacks, who would have the batteries ready for the flashlights, who would be responsible for waking everyone up and who would have the thermoses filled with hot chocolate- and being 14 year old girls- we talked about what we were going to wear!
Thursday night brought mixed emotions- we were indeed excited about the morning hike right around the corner, but it meant the camp experience was coming to an end as well. Friday morning also heralded Friday evening- the last night of camp. Shortly after 5.00 am on Friday morning we slowly made our way up the steep footpath to the top of the mountain. The only sounds we heard were our footsteps crunching the wooden twigs beneath us, our clothing brushing against the close underbrush of the forest trees and our thermoses jostling in our backpacks. At the top of the mountain we spread out our blanket in a clearing and waited. We sat looking towards the east straining to see the sun’s first rays and with our mugs filled with hot chocolate we were ready to welcome this day.

Our first glimpse of the morning light was not the sun itself but trees and dew filled grass that started to sparkle. Grasses became deep green in color, water drops on spider webs twinkled like crystal and mountain ranges seemingly backlit gained their distinctive outlines.

      It seemed the rising of the morning sun could not be distinguished from the effect it had on everything it touched.

Although I haven’t stayed in touch with any of the girls from that summer camp over the years, remembering that Friday morning still brings me a deep sense of awe and peace. I find myself repeating the process of ‘dreaming, planning, waiting, experiencing and remembering’ as I seek to become the person God has created me to be and I still get excited about sharing this journey with others who seek God’s presence.

Where do you see dew touched grass sparkle and crystal water drops hanging from spider webs on your journey today?

Sunday, March 7, 2010

extraordinary mercy

Extraordinary mercy-
Our gospel text for this morning is Luke 13: 1-9
At that very time there were some present who told him about the Galileans whose blood Pilate had mingled with their sacrifices. He asked them, "Do you think that because these Galileans suffered in this way they were worse sinners than all other Galileans? No, I tell you; but unless you repent, you will all perish as they did. Or those eighteen who were killed when the tower of Siloam fell on them--do you think that they were worse offenders than all the others living in Jerusalem? No, I tell you; but unless you repent, you will all perish just as they did."
Then he told this parable: "A man had a fig tree planted in his vineyard; and he came looking for fruit on it and found none. So he said to the gardener, 'See here! For three years I have come looking for fruit on this fig tree, and still I find none. Cut it down! Why should it be wasting the soil?' He replied, 'Sir, let it alone for one more year, until I dig around it and put manure on it. If it bears fruit next year, well and good; but if not, you can cut it down.'"
What happens when someone brings you news?
News of an accident, news of a tragedy, news of joy?
What do you do/what do you think/how do you feel?
People brought Jesus news. It doesn’t seem that they were trying to set him up with a tricky question- ‘let’s see how he answers this one!’ Without internet, TV, all the ways we hear about things today- people relied on conversation- did you hear- with the expectation that a response would be- no- that’s awful, I didn’t know- or perhaps- well you know that doesn’t surprise me.
Jesus could have responded with either statement- but then we wouldn’t have this text would we.
People bring Jesus news. The news is about a tragedy. Some commentators refer to Pilate’s actions as ‘state sanctioned terror’ and Jesus responds by asking a question them about their interpretation of the event, about meaning, about possible judgment:
Do you think that because these Galileans suffered in this way there were worse sinners than all other Galileans?
When I envision this scene Jesus has listened to those people who brought him the news tell their story and you can almost see them wait to see Jesus respond in the expected way- which might have been to say something like- they got what they deserved- or something that would link cause and effect.
In a sense the listeners would have thought Jesus is asking them a rhetorical question- where the answer is ‘of course!’
But Jesus seems to save them the embarrassment of answering wrong and answers for them: NO, but I tell you unless you repent, you will perish just as they did.
And before they can interrupt or question him, Jesus continues with the news of a random accident Or those eighteen who were killed when the tower of Siloam fell on them--do you think that they were worse offenders than all the others living in Jerusalem?
Again he answers for them: No, unless you repent you will all perish just like they did.
In the first instance-Pilates’ random violence- Jesus undermines the idea that people who suffered were ‘sinners’ and thus deserved it.
In the second instance- the falling tower- Jesus undermined the idea that bad things happen to people who are in debt.
The flow of this conversation reminds me of conversations I hear in couples counseling. People are talking, in fact, sometimes they even take turns, but they are talking about very different things.
How does Jesus move from a discussion of cause and effect- from reasonable expectations to: repent?
I will come back to that thought in a moment.
Some of you will be watching the academy awards tonight. One of the movies nominated in the best documentary short category is a filmed titled: China's Unnatural Disaster: The Tears of Sichuan Province. The documentary chronicles what happened in the aftermath of a massive earthquake in the Sichuan province of china in 2008. The short documentary narrates the efforts of the parents to seek answers to the questions re: how money was spent or not spent on the school buildings and it narrates the Chinese government’s efforts to maintain silence about the tragedy. It seems the Chinese government has blocked the announcement and any news coverage of this documentary.
One example of response to tragedy: silence, denial of accountability, lack of compassion.
Earlier this week Mark Becker stood passively Tuesday as a jury found him guilty of murder in the shooting of a nationally known Iowa high school football coach. And people respond by introduction legislation that would regulate communication between mental institutions and law enforcement agencies.
One response to tragedy: seek order, seek accountability, and seek ways to prevent future occurrences.
In the recent Olympic games Russia celebrated three gold medals. And the Russian president’s response is as follows: “Those who are responsible for training for the Olympics must take responsibility,” Mr. Medvedev said on Monday. “They must have the courage to submit their resignation,” he said. “And if they do not have this resolve, we will help them.”
One response: is to blame someone, to embarrass, or to shame.
I’m wondering if there is a connection between how you respond depends on who you are. If you are a government you have these resources and options, if you’re a president- you have these resources and options, if you’re a parent you have these resources and options.
And if you’re a child of God...
Repent- saying you’re sorry –yes- apologize to those you hurt- yes, but repentance here means so much more:
1. a changed mind, a new way of seeing things,
2. being persuaded to adopt a different perspective.
This repentance refers to an entirely new reoriented self,
3. to a new consciousness of one’s shortcomings
4. turning and moving into a new direction.
And the direction we are supposed to turn towards?
Jesus tells them a parable.
"A man had a fig tree planted in his vineyard; and he came looking for fruit on it and found none. So he said to the gardener, 'See here! For three years I have come looking for fruit on this fig tree, and still I find none. Cut it down! Why should it be wasting the soil?' He replied, 'Sir, let it alone for one more year, until I dig around it and put manure on it. If it bears fruit next year, well and good; but if not, you can cut it down.'"
What is reasonable here? The expectation of fruit produced within a certain amount of time. When the man requests the tree be cut down- he’s not acting in any of the ways we just mentioned before: he’s not blaming, he’s not shaming, he’s not trying to deny anything, nor is he trying to prevent this from happening in the future. He is requesting what any person would request. That which is reasonable.
And the gardener responds: 'Sir, let it alone for one more year, until I dig around it and put manure on it. If it bears fruit next year, well and good; but if not, you can cut it down.'
In response to the man’s reasonable request- to cut the tree down’ -the gardener suggests ‘let it alone –the verb here can also be mean forgive- show mercy- all unreasonable actions – the early listeners would have been shaking their head at the suggestion that someone would fertilize a tree, that someone would ‘forgive’ a tree, that someone would act in unreasonable, unexpected – extraordinary ways.
Alongside the message of mercy is the message of urgency: don’t waste your time. It is later than you think. Those whom Pilate killed thought they had more time, so did those people on whom the tower fell. So did those who died in the recent earthquakes, floods and accidents. Seize the opportunity of the present while it’s here. Don’t put it off, live fully, live a life of repentance, live a life showing mercy.
I hear the Holy Spirit calling to my heart and mind these things in today’s gospel.
1. My response to those around me is based on who I am as a person of faith. And as a person of faith my first act is of repentance- recognizing my sin, my need for grace, my need for God.
2. My newly reoriented self- this self turns towards mercy- by offering mercy- this unexpected grace, this unreasonable grace, this extraordinary forgiveness.
A story is told of the Emperor Napoleon who had a rule in his army that anyone who went absent without leave, on being captured would be shot the next morning at breakfast time. There was a boy of seventeen who had seen many of his companions die. Scared, he ran away, but he was caught and was sentenced to be executed next morning at breakfast time. It so happened that this boy was the son of Napoleon’s cook. The mother went to plead for mercy. Eventually, Napoleon ordered her out of his sight saying, “Woman, your son does not deserve mercy.” To this she replied, “Yes, of course, you are right. He does not deserve mercy. If he deserved it, it would no longer be mercy.”



Who in your life needs to hear your words of unexpected mercy,
-who is longing to be shown unreasonable grace,
-who longs for extraordinary forgiveness?

This lent would be a good time to start.

Monday, January 25, 2010

Steve Jobs annoucement of the new Apple Tablet

"This will be the most important thing I've ever done." Steve Jobs, CEO of Apple, is referring to the yet to be revealed Apple Tablet. While I have a couple of things I've created (educational programs/creative arts/research) could I say that one thing is THE most important thing- one thing that is yet to be tested, evaluated or revised? Isn't that something you say at the end of your life while revisiting memories with family and friends, "Do you remember when we ditched algebra class, caught the bus into town and sat at the coffee shop all afternoon? Wasn't that fun?" (Disclaimer to my children: this is a totally invented story!)
Which got me thinking, what can i (or you) say is the most important thing we've ever done? And how would you evaluate significance? By size, cost, largest impact on the most people, most significant change in one individual? Of course this exercise soon becomes impossible to do without first recognizing that what one values will guide the framework for deciding what is important.
I'm happy for Steve Jobs to be able to experience such moments of joy, fulfillment and satisfaction with regards to the work he is doing. I am ecstatic when people of faith demonstrate similar enthusiasm for Spirit's work in us and the world.

I can see the headline now-God says "This is my best work" as God introduces creation. While I am happy that Steve Jobs has created the Tablet, I can go through life never owning one (although I will probably envy those who have one), however my very existence flows from God's proclamation of God's work. "God saw all that God had made, and it was very good." Genesis 1:31.

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

Mark Mcguire's forgiveness two-step

5 years. In 5 years a newborn develops language, social skills and not a few bumps and scraps along the way. In 5 years I started and finished my dissertation. You can do a lot in 5 years. I don't know what else Mark Mcguire did during his last 5 years except one thing- hold his apology close to his chest. Maybe Mcguire should have watched pbs' show -this emotional life' 5 years ago (hypothetically speaking since the show only aired this week), because he would have heard that scientists are linking holding on to resentment and the lack of forgiveness to heart disease. 5 years of resenting, 5 years of wanting to tell the truth, 5 years of building really bad arteries in his heart. I wish Mark Mcguire all the best. I especially wish for him the ability to be able to forgive and ask for forgiveness in the moment- when it happens, when your words or actions are still ringing in your ears and in your heart. I pray that for all of us.

Friday, January 8, 2010

on the wall

'I spent many years on the wall.' The former Vietnam pow Bob Shumaker demonstrated leaning against a wall and tapping out a code meant for fellow prisoners of war. Shumaker was interviewed on pbs' recent series 'the emotional life'. He described the blueprints for a 'dream house' that he had created in his mind to keep himself focused. 'I knew how many bricks were in each wall, then I would wonder -what would the fireplace look like against that wall- and i'd redesign the house.' It seems unbelievable that he could say, if given a choice to have the pow experience or not- he would choose the 8 years as a prisoner. 'i learned something about myself.'
Which got me thinking-what am I learning that years from now I will look back on and say, 'I'm grateful for the expereince'? Will part of my learning include standing next to a wall encouraging those around me, remembering what is good and envisioning it for the future?
When Bob Shumaker returned to the US he eventually built the house he had been planning for eight years.
What are you building and have you spent time with Spirit dreaming, praying and dancing about it?